First Silly Blogging Experience of 2010

Were your last 5 kisses from the same person?
wi wi

What are you doing today?
well today being today, sleep.
today being tomorrow, go to wrok!

What is the date?
the 2nd
or the third

What did you do last night?
salepppt. and cleaned my room

The last song you listened to?
some silly country tune about an american girl dall

If you could pack your bags right now and were given a plane ticket, where would you go?
the location on the ticket

Who do you trust with your life?
my father

Have you ever made someone your everything?
no. he's a lot of things, but not everything

Longest relationship?
one year and eight days

Do you trust all of your friends?
no no

Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
eventually. in my older days. not now

Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?
No!

The person you like runs up and kisses you, your reaction?
hellooooo beautiful

Do you regret doing anything you've done this week?
oh no.
maybe right now.
and one other thing.
so yes.

Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
oh yeeeah. but not really, id rather sleep

Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?
ze museum of animals?

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
nunca

Will next Friday be a good one?
od courseeee

Do you think age matters in a relationship?
a leetle bit. right now at least yes

What were you doing at 9:00 am?
sleeeeeping

Do you currently have a hickey?
hau hau, no.

Do you think the person you like is nice?
non

Has the last person you rode in a car with seen you in your undies?
wi wi

Do you ever think about the past?
yes ze past ees on my mind sometimes

Do you ever think about what 'could of been'?
wi wi.
but i am where i am supposed to be.

Last night you felt?
tiredddd

What are you wearing right now?
shizorts and a t

Do you want to see somebody right now?
not really

Who is in the room with you?
nada

What would happen if you were suddenly in bed with the last person who texted you?
it would be so hot

Are you afraid of falling in love?
no no.

Have you ever felt replaced?
everyonnee has

Do you treat others as you'd like to be treated?
sort ot

If you were 12 and you could see yourself now, would you be disappointed?
heh. no. i was predictable

Do you know your mothers birthday?
i believe so

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
yes

Who was the last person you hugged?
dirty samon

What's the last secret someone told you?
do not remembar

What are your plans for this coming weekend?
donnooo. sleep

What is your favorite color?
red & green tied

Do you like texting?
not really

Are you starting to realize anything?
loads of things

Can you remember the last time you really liked someone?
oh yeeah

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely anything and everything for?
yes

Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
yes

Do you have any text messages that you don't want other people reading?
no

Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
yeeeah

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
yeeah

Do you hate anyone?
yes

Is there anyone you wish to fix things with?
not really. np.

Here comes the deep stuff, are you ready?
wiwi

Do you really know how heartbreak feels?
yes. in many ways

The person you like now, do they feel the same?
i believe so

Could you forgive someone who slept with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
probably. depending.

Do you tend to hold things against people?
no

Anything bothering you right now?
my chipchapped lips

Are all girls bitchy?
many.

Do you break promises to people?
no.

Original questions, ready?
hehe

Without saying names, whats one thing about the last person you kissed?
he's a jolly white giant

Don't tell me lies, have you been under the influence in the past 24 hours?
hehe

You open the door and it's Lil Wayne you:
oh sheeit you late son of a gun

Do you ever think about what went wrong in your last relationship?
no no. i understand.

Who is the next person you will kiss?
a silly willy milly

Who were you last in a car with?
dirty samchez and nikki

Who was the last person you physically hit?
jashua id guess

Do you remember your very first kiss?
yes

Do you think things will change in the next few months?
yes

Were you single on your last birthday?
nono

Last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted,would you believe them?
wiwi

What song are you currently listening to?
my sniffly nose and fingertips...

What is your opinion on late night phone calls?
certainly if i aint sleeping.

Have you cried this past week?
wiwi

Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
yes!

Has the last person you kissed ever hurt you?
yes!

Say your ex walks up to you and hugs you, what do you say?
hi!!! how are you

If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they'd be mad?
yeah. but whatever

Who was the last person to touch your stomach?
jishyy jash

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
wiwi

What is your favorite thing about being sick?
i am. and it is oppositeee of fun

How many people can you trust with just about everything?
three

Where is the one boy/girl you want to see the most right now?
saleeping.

Do you think two people can last forever?
yes

Last time you laughed super hard? And why?
todiday

Think back to September, were you in a relationship?
wiwiw

Would it be weird if the last person you kissed called you?
nono

Do you currently have a hickey, if so where?
no...did i answer this already?

Will you regret your next kiss?
nono

The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
yes

Ever had a girl best friend?
yes

If Britney Spears came to your town, would you go see her concert?
i woul get that bitch to my party.

Who was the last person to leave you a comment?
shelley shelley

Would you prefer being locked in a room with your ex or your worst enemy?
exxxx. he's a dear

If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
flyyy

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
wiwi

Someone says to you now, "lets go to a party and get trashed!" you say?
hehe. im tired

If you had to sleep with one of your teachers from high school, who would it be?
fruendel.

The first person on your friends list just called you an asshole. What do you have to say to them?
silly gay kid

When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, do you keep it or tell the cashier to keep it?
keep usually. unless theres a tip jar

Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
nono

Do you wear a name tag at work?
oh that'd be cool

What is in your pocket?
no pocket

You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false?
both

Does it bother you when people fight in front of you?
not really. i giggle. serious things make me laugh

Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something you did?
wiwi

Have you kissed someone in '09 that means a lot to you?
tis over. but yes, there was

Do you know a guy named David?
wiwi.
my love.

Are you nice to everyone?
no

How's your life lately?
really lovely.
slow.

Does your mom like the last person you kissed?
i believe she does

Is it uncomfortable staring into the eyes of someone who likes you and you like back?
no way jiggly puff

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
yess

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
yesss

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
no. i giggly

Do you reply to all of your texts?
sometimes. not really though.

In Need of Some Writings and Some Nonsence.

I have fallen completely head-over-heels in love with my boyfriend, and have just come to realize it for the first time. It is a fantastic and a terrifying feeling. I want to leave in 8 months more than anything. I want to stay with him for eternity more than anything. I am a naive 17 year old girl and don't know how else to feel. I hope some day I am old and read this and laugh at how silly I was. I will laugh because I will be with this boy or I will not be with this boy, and either way I will be where I am supposed to be, and this 17 year old me will seem so very silly.
I miss the old boy and look forward to new boys. I miss the old days and look forward to new days. I miss my old t-shirts and I look forward to new ones. I miss spirit weeks and I look forward to a college that most likely does not have a football team. I miss playing flashlight tag on late summer nights and I look forward to one day watching my children play. I miss my sister and I look forward to discovering who she is. I miss old years and I look forward to new years.
I could look forever at meaningless things: smiling faces of people I have never met, purses and shoes I could never afford, lost puppies I could never save. I could look forever in the mirror, examining my face and understanding the circles under my eyes. I really could lay in his arms forever (this love, even though it is my own, has just made me cry a little, happiness is a wonderful thing). I could look forever at a shoebox of the world, holding every little secret and every sacred thing.
I have faith in the human race. We are all going somewhere, and many know where they are going. To many, it is an adventure. My path is a mix of the two; I have ideas but I hope the universe throws in a few twists. If it sticks to my story I am bound to get bored.
This, the first day of 2010, the year I graduate high school, the year I turn 18, the year I move away from home, is just about over.
Here is my resolution:
To find the place I want to be, or at least be a step closer to the end.


Happy New Year

Happy Two Thirty in the Morning on Christmas Eve

I am so in love with life right not. Its a wonderful feeling.
I want to share it with someone but most everyone I love is asleep.

I wonder how so many people wound up here. They don't belong here. No one really belongs here. A few farmers and a few dogs. No men in suits or girls in white dresses. Don't they understand, they're bound to get grass stains. Don't they understand, these are supposed to be trees. This town breeds drugs. They grow in the ground and in sewage systems and under beds. Don't they understand, they should get out now while they still can! No one belongs here but grandfathers and corn fields and a deer from time to time. No men who work in office buildings. No girls with open legs. Don't they understand, they are bound to get their hearts broken. This town sucks the sleep right out of you. It keeps it for itself, its so damn tired all the time. In this town, you can't sleep. You just hide awake in the darkness with nothing to do but hope your plants grow soon. This town has no good cuisine. It was designed for homemade pumpkin pies and roast chicken. No men with catering services or girls making subs. Don't they understand, there is no market for that here. Don't they understand, it is not what we need. I wonder why they decided to end up here. It was a conscience choice. I was born into it and no am stuck. Don't they understand, they are free. Don't they understand, there is no room here. I wonder how so many people got here. They should have listened when we all screamed "Get out!"

Andrea Racine

Andrea Racine is fly paper. She catches bugs that no one else likes and sticks them to herself. She never lets them go.

Andrea Racine is making fun of everything that she is. She is a human and a girl and goes to high school and goes to parties.

Andrea Racine has straight across bangs, wears scarves and Ray Bans.

Andrea Racine is scene. (what a rhyme)

Andrea Racine speaks in strange accents and speaks to her cat as if he were human.

Andrea Racine is proud of the statement above.

Andrea Racine gets on facebook at least once a day but she really, really shouldn't.

Andrea Racine says "I love you" quite often through text messages but, again, she really, really shouldn't.

Andrea Racine lives a life for show.

But at least the soundtrack is really good.

I Do Not Wear Ugg Boots

Lets pretend that we are something bigger than what we are. We can think that everyone is watching us, even if they aren't. We could have been friends with great people. We could have known the world better than we do. Let us pretend. Let us pretend there are lions in the den, having dinner, having supper by the fire. They are lounging, holding hands and playing cards. They are free and as much like people as you or me. There is a rug, in the den by the fire, where lions lay and pretend to play, they roar. Calling to us, calling to us, they pretend to be in pain.
A ROAR.
And I am gone. In the belly of a beast. With you by my side, we were the feast. We could have been friends. Maybe, we could have been friends and gotten along. But you came along, you came along, and your life was wrong, we couldn't be friends. We could have, maybe, if you had had a brain. An idea. A thought? What exactly did you need? A pair of glasses and sunscreen? What did you need? How many times can you run around the circle, it looks the same. How many times can you pretend you aren't insane? You aren't insane. How many times can people humor you, pretend you are correct. Pretend.
It is all make believe.
You made me not believe, and I blame You. You made me not believe in anything. So thank you, I hate you, I'd gladly see you run away. I would feel better if you weren't in my life at all. I have barely even known you and its ruined. The lions took us away and it is ruined. Its thanks to you I can't believe. Am I fair to pass judgment on you? I don't even know you but you made me stop believing and I tried to get to know you and now I know I shouldn't have tried to get to know you because nothing good came from knowing you I just wanted to throw you out the window of that car.
Sorry. Let me try to breathe. It is a tight fit in the stomach of this beast.
You wear Ugg boots which seems so unlike you but if it makes you happy it is what you have to do.
Rewind, rewind, rewind.
No one wears Ugg boots.

Happy Thanksgiving.

I just slept on my sister's shoulder for the majority of a two and a half hour movie.
There were no mashed potatoes this year.
My throat hurts, and one tonsil is swollen up to the size of Mt. Olympus.
My brain is having trouble thinking.
I had something really important to write, but I forget what it was.
Happy Thanksgiving.