I Hope I Know What I Said

My trust is shallow
Empty and whole
Built like bridges
Held up by great supports
But could crumble with one wrong move
I am afraid.
I am afraid to tough you
To see you to feel you
To want to need to hope
I am afraid of darkness
Of shadows of blindness of light
I am afraid to forget
To remember to look back
To look forward to look
I am afraid to accept you
To learn, to cherish to see
I am afraid to realize your okay
To grow to challenge to change
I am afraid of living
Of knowing of doing of healing
I am afraid to forgive you
I am afraid it will all be the same
I am afraid,