Lets pretend that we are something bigger than what we are. We can think that everyone is watching us, even if they aren't. We could have been friends with great people. We could have known the world better than we do. Let us pretend. Let us pretend there are lions in the den, having dinner, having supper by the fire. They are lounging, holding hands and playing cards. They are free and as much like people as you or me. There is a rug, in the den by the fire, where lions lay and pretend to play, they roar. Calling to us, calling to us, they pretend to be in pain.
A ROAR.
And I am gone. In the belly of a beast. With you by my side, we were the feast. We could have been friends. Maybe, we could have been friends and gotten along. But you came along, you came along, and your life was wrong, we couldn't be friends. We could have, maybe, if you had had a brain. An idea. A thought? What exactly did you need? A pair of glasses and sunscreen? What did you need? How many times can you run around the circle, it looks the same. How many times can you pretend you aren't insane? You aren't insane. How many times can people humor you, pretend you are correct. Pretend.
It is all make believe.
You made me not believe, and I blame You. You made me not believe in anything. So thank you, I hate you, I'd gladly see you run away. I would feel better if you weren't in my life at all. I have barely even known you and its ruined. The lions took us away and it is ruined. Its thanks to you I can't believe. Am I fair to pass judgment on you? I don't even know you but you made me stop believing and I tried to get to know you and now I know I shouldn't have tried to get to know you because nothing good came from knowing you I just wanted to throw you out the window of that car.
Sorry. Let me try to breathe. It is a tight fit in the stomach of this beast.
You wear Ugg boots which seems so unlike you but if it makes you happy it is what you have to do.
Rewind, rewind, rewind.
No one wears Ugg boots.
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