I do not remember when my mother stopped reading me bedtime stories. I suppose it was when I learned to read them myself. One day I was looking at life upside-down and backwards, listening to words about a Prince being spat into my ear. The next day I could see the world correctly and told myself about the Rose he was in love with. One day, an Engine could. The next day, I could. I guess we could relate to each other. If I ever felt full, complete and whole, it was a time when I was young.
I wish I better remembered being a wild thing.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
First Silly Blogging Experience of 2010
Were your last 5 kisses from the same person?
wi wi
What are you doing today?
well today being today, sleep.
today being tomorrow, go to wrok!
What is the date?
the 2nd
or the third
What did you do last night?
salepppt. and cleaned my room
The last song you listened to?
some silly country tune about an american girl dall
If you could pack your bags right now and were given a plane ticket, where would you go?
the location on the ticket
Who do you trust with your life?
my father
Have you ever made someone your everything?
no. he's a lot of things, but not everything
Longest relationship?
one year and eight days
Do you trust all of your friends?
no no
Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
eventually. in my older days. not now
Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?
No!
The person you like runs up and kisses you, your reaction?
hellooooo beautiful
Do you regret doing anything you've done this week?
oh no.
maybe right now.
and one other thing.
so yes.
Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
oh yeeeah. but not really, id rather sleep
Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?
ze museum of animals?
How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
nunca
Will next Friday be a good one?
od courseeee
Do you think age matters in a relationship?
a leetle bit. right now at least yes
What were you doing at 9:00 am?
sleeeeeping
Do you currently have a hickey?
hau hau, no.
Do you think the person you like is nice?
non
Has the last person you rode in a car with seen you in your undies?
wi wi
Do you ever think about the past?
yes ze past ees on my mind sometimes
Do you ever think about what 'could of been'?
wi wi.
but i am where i am supposed to be.
Last night you felt?
tiredddd
What are you wearing right now?
shizorts and a t
Do you want to see somebody right now?
not really
Who is in the room with you?
nada
What would happen if you were suddenly in bed with the last person who texted you?
it would be so hot
Are you afraid of falling in love?
no no.
Have you ever felt replaced?
everyonnee has
Do you treat others as you'd like to be treated?
sort ot
If you were 12 and you could see yourself now, would you be disappointed?
heh. no. i was predictable
Do you know your mothers birthday?
i believe so
Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
yes
Who was the last person you hugged?
dirty samon
What's the last secret someone told you?
do not remembar
What are your plans for this coming weekend?
donnooo. sleep
What is your favorite color?
red & green tied
Do you like texting?
not really
Are you starting to realize anything?
loads of things
Can you remember the last time you really liked someone?
oh yeeah
Is there a girl that you would do absolutely anything and everything for?
yes
Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
yes
Do you have any text messages that you don't want other people reading?
no
Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
yeeeah
Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
yeeah
Do you hate anyone?
yes
Is there anyone you wish to fix things with?
not really. np.
Here comes the deep stuff, are you ready?
wiwi
Do you really know how heartbreak feels?
yes. in many ways
The person you like now, do they feel the same?
i believe so
Could you forgive someone who slept with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
probably. depending.
Do you tend to hold things against people?
no
Anything bothering you right now?
my chipchapped lips
Are all girls bitchy?
many.
Do you break promises to people?
no.
Original questions, ready?
hehe
Without saying names, whats one thing about the last person you kissed?
he's a jolly white giant
Don't tell me lies, have you been under the influence in the past 24 hours?
hehe
You open the door and it's Lil Wayne you:
oh sheeit you late son of a gun
Do you ever think about what went wrong in your last relationship?
no no. i understand.
Who is the next person you will kiss?
a silly willy milly
Who were you last in a car with?
dirty samchez and nikki
Who was the last person you physically hit?
jashua id guess
Do you remember your very first kiss?
yes
Do you think things will change in the next few months?
yes
Were you single on your last birthday?
nono
Last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted,would you believe them?
wiwi
What song are you currently listening to?
my sniffly nose and fingertips...
What is your opinion on late night phone calls?
certainly if i aint sleeping.
Have you cried this past week?
wiwi
Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
yes!
Has the last person you kissed ever hurt you?
yes!
Say your ex walks up to you and hugs you, what do you say?
hi!!! how are you
If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they'd be mad?
yeah. but whatever
Who was the last person to touch your stomach?
jishyy jash
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
wiwi
What is your favorite thing about being sick?
i am. and it is oppositeee of fun
How many people can you trust with just about everything?
three
Where is the one boy/girl you want to see the most right now?
saleeping.
Do you think two people can last forever?
yes
Last time you laughed super hard? And why?
todiday
Think back to September, were you in a relationship?
wiwiw
Would it be weird if the last person you kissed called you?
nono
Do you currently have a hickey, if so where?
no...did i answer this already?
Will you regret your next kiss?
nono
The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
yes
Ever had a girl best friend?
yes
If Britney Spears came to your town, would you go see her concert?
i woul get that bitch to my party.
Who was the last person to leave you a comment?
shelley shelley
Would you prefer being locked in a room with your ex or your worst enemy?
exxxx. he's a dear
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
flyyy
Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
wiwi
Someone says to you now, "lets go to a party and get trashed!" you say?
hehe. im tired
If you had to sleep with one of your teachers from high school, who would it be?
fruendel.
The first person on your friends list just called you an asshole. What do you have to say to them?
silly gay kid
When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, do you keep it or tell the cashier to keep it?
keep usually. unless theres a tip jar
Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
nono
Do you wear a name tag at work?
oh that'd be cool
What is in your pocket?
no pocket
You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false?
both
Does it bother you when people fight in front of you?
not really. i giggle. serious things make me laugh
Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something you did?
wiwi
Have you kissed someone in '09 that means a lot to you?
tis over. but yes, there was
Do you know a guy named David?
wiwi.
my love.
Are you nice to everyone?
no
How's your life lately?
really lovely.
slow.
Does your mom like the last person you kissed?
i believe she does
Is it uncomfortable staring into the eyes of someone who likes you and you like back?
no way jiggly puff
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
yess
Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
yesss
Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
no. i giggly
Do you reply to all of your texts?
sometimes. not really though.
wi wi
What are you doing today?
well today being today, sleep.
today being tomorrow, go to wrok!
What is the date?
the 2nd
or the third
What did you do last night?
salepppt. and cleaned my room
The last song you listened to?
some silly country tune about an american girl dall
If you could pack your bags right now and were given a plane ticket, where would you go?
the location on the ticket
Who do you trust with your life?
my father
Have you ever made someone your everything?
no. he's a lot of things, but not everything
Longest relationship?
one year and eight days
Do you trust all of your friends?
no no
Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
eventually. in my older days. not now
Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?
No!
The person you like runs up and kisses you, your reaction?
hellooooo beautiful
Do you regret doing anything you've done this week?
oh no.
maybe right now.
and one other thing.
so yes.
Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
oh yeeeah. but not really, id rather sleep
Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?
ze museum of animals?
How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
nunca
Will next Friday be a good one?
od courseeee
Do you think age matters in a relationship?
a leetle bit. right now at least yes
What were you doing at 9:00 am?
sleeeeeping
Do you currently have a hickey?
hau hau, no.
Do you think the person you like is nice?
non
Has the last person you rode in a car with seen you in your undies?
wi wi
Do you ever think about the past?
yes ze past ees on my mind sometimes
Do you ever think about what 'could of been'?
wi wi.
but i am where i am supposed to be.
Last night you felt?
tiredddd
What are you wearing right now?
shizorts and a t
Do you want to see somebody right now?
not really
Who is in the room with you?
nada
What would happen if you were suddenly in bed with the last person who texted you?
it would be so hot
Are you afraid of falling in love?
no no.
Have you ever felt replaced?
everyonnee has
Do you treat others as you'd like to be treated?
sort ot
If you were 12 and you could see yourself now, would you be disappointed?
heh. no. i was predictable
Do you know your mothers birthday?
i believe so
Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
yes
Who was the last person you hugged?
dirty samon
What's the last secret someone told you?
do not remembar
What are your plans for this coming weekend?
donnooo. sleep
What is your favorite color?
red & green tied
Do you like texting?
not really
Are you starting to realize anything?
loads of things
Can you remember the last time you really liked someone?
oh yeeah
Is there a girl that you would do absolutely anything and everything for?
yes
Is your hair longer than your shoulders?
yes
Do you have any text messages that you don't want other people reading?
no
Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
yeeeah
Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
yeeah
Do you hate anyone?
yes
Is there anyone you wish to fix things with?
not really. np.
Here comes the deep stuff, are you ready?
wiwi
Do you really know how heartbreak feels?
yes. in many ways
The person you like now, do they feel the same?
i believe so
Could you forgive someone who slept with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
probably. depending.
Do you tend to hold things against people?
no
Anything bothering you right now?
my chipchapped lips
Are all girls bitchy?
many.
Do you break promises to people?
no.
Original questions, ready?
hehe
Without saying names, whats one thing about the last person you kissed?
he's a jolly white giant
Don't tell me lies, have you been under the influence in the past 24 hours?
hehe
You open the door and it's Lil Wayne you:
oh sheeit you late son of a gun
Do you ever think about what went wrong in your last relationship?
no no. i understand.
Who is the next person you will kiss?
a silly willy milly
Who were you last in a car with?
dirty samchez and nikki
Who was the last person you physically hit?
jashua id guess
Do you remember your very first kiss?
yes
Do you think things will change in the next few months?
yes
Were you single on your last birthday?
nono
Last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted,would you believe them?
wiwi
What song are you currently listening to?
my sniffly nose and fingertips...
What is your opinion on late night phone calls?
certainly if i aint sleeping.
Have you cried this past week?
wiwi
Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
yes!
Has the last person you kissed ever hurt you?
yes!
Say your ex walks up to you and hugs you, what do you say?
hi!!! how are you
If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they'd be mad?
yeah. but whatever
Who was the last person to touch your stomach?
jishyy jash
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
wiwi
What is your favorite thing about being sick?
i am. and it is oppositeee of fun
How many people can you trust with just about everything?
three
Where is the one boy/girl you want to see the most right now?
saleeping.
Do you think two people can last forever?
yes
Last time you laughed super hard? And why?
todiday
Think back to September, were you in a relationship?
wiwiw
Would it be weird if the last person you kissed called you?
nono
Do you currently have a hickey, if so where?
no...did i answer this already?
Will you regret your next kiss?
nono
The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
yes
Ever had a girl best friend?
yes
If Britney Spears came to your town, would you go see her concert?
i woul get that bitch to my party.
Who was the last person to leave you a comment?
shelley shelley
Would you prefer being locked in a room with your ex or your worst enemy?
exxxx. he's a dear
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
flyyy
Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
wiwi
Someone says to you now, "lets go to a party and get trashed!" you say?
hehe. im tired
If you had to sleep with one of your teachers from high school, who would it be?
fruendel.
The first person on your friends list just called you an asshole. What do you have to say to them?
silly gay kid
When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, do you keep it or tell the cashier to keep it?
keep usually. unless theres a tip jar
Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
nono
Do you wear a name tag at work?
oh that'd be cool
What is in your pocket?
no pocket
You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false?
both
Does it bother you when people fight in front of you?
not really. i giggle. serious things make me laugh
Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something you did?
wiwi
Have you kissed someone in '09 that means a lot to you?
tis over. but yes, there was
Do you know a guy named David?
wiwi.
my love.
Are you nice to everyone?
no
How's your life lately?
really lovely.
slow.
Does your mom like the last person you kissed?
i believe she does
Is it uncomfortable staring into the eyes of someone who likes you and you like back?
no way jiggly puff
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
yess
Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
yesss
Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
no. i giggly
Do you reply to all of your texts?
sometimes. not really though.
Friday, January 1, 2010
In Need of Some Writings and Some Nonsence.
I have fallen completely head-over-heels in love with my boyfriend, and have just come to realize it for the first time. It is a fantastic and a terrifying feeling. I want to leave in 8 months more than anything. I want to stay with him for eternity more than anything. I am a naive 17 year old girl and don't know how else to feel. I hope some day I am old and read this and laugh at how silly I was. I will laugh because I will be with this boy or I will not be with this boy, and either way I will be where I am supposed to be, and this 17 year old me will seem so very silly.
I miss the old boy and look forward to new boys. I miss the old days and look forward to new days. I miss my old t-shirts and I look forward to new ones. I miss spirit weeks and I look forward to a college that most likely does not have a football team. I miss playing flashlight tag on late summer nights and I look forward to one day watching my children play. I miss my sister and I look forward to discovering who she is. I miss old years and I look forward to new years.
I could look forever at meaningless things: smiling faces of people I have never met, purses and shoes I could never afford, lost puppies I could never save. I could look forever in the mirror, examining my face and understanding the circles under my eyes. I really could lay in his arms forever (this love, even though it is my own, has just made me cry a little, happiness is a wonderful thing). I could look forever at a shoebox of the world, holding every little secret and every sacred thing.
I have faith in the human race. We are all going somewhere, and many know where they are going. To many, it is an adventure. My path is a mix of the two; I have ideas but I hope the universe throws in a few twists. If it sticks to my story I am bound to get bored.
This, the first day of 2010, the year I graduate high school, the year I turn 18, the year I move away from home, is just about over.
Here is my resolution:
To find the place I want to be, or at least be a step closer to the end.
Happy New Year
I miss the old boy and look forward to new boys. I miss the old days and look forward to new days. I miss my old t-shirts and I look forward to new ones. I miss spirit weeks and I look forward to a college that most likely does not have a football team. I miss playing flashlight tag on late summer nights and I look forward to one day watching my children play. I miss my sister and I look forward to discovering who she is. I miss old years and I look forward to new years.
I could look forever at meaningless things: smiling faces of people I have never met, purses and shoes I could never afford, lost puppies I could never save. I could look forever in the mirror, examining my face and understanding the circles under my eyes. I really could lay in his arms forever (this love, even though it is my own, has just made me cry a little, happiness is a wonderful thing). I could look forever at a shoebox of the world, holding every little secret and every sacred thing.
I have faith in the human race. We are all going somewhere, and many know where they are going. To many, it is an adventure. My path is a mix of the two; I have ideas but I hope the universe throws in a few twists. If it sticks to my story I am bound to get bored.
This, the first day of 2010, the year I graduate high school, the year I turn 18, the year I move away from home, is just about over.
Here is my resolution:
To find the place I want to be, or at least be a step closer to the end.
Happy New Year
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